Goodbyes...not

20121224 Monday - Silent Night.  Fian and I came down while Gloria and my in-laws are with the boys (thanks).  Mom again was in pain and spending a lot of time resting.  However, whenever there's visitors, her caring chair hosting characteristics would still drive her to use all her energy left in her tank just greet them and "talk" to them.  As Mom needs medication more frequent as her pain is bothering her more and more, she's having more and more "unconscious" time in a day.  The medication is super drowsy making her really sleepy.  Sometimes, she can sleep for up to three hours.

We got to spend some quality time together today while having visitors in between.  Thanks for all the visits, prayers, songs, food, all the phone calls, texts, messages, etc.  Fian and I went pick up our 4 Gu Jeh (Dad's sister) from the airport.  With Mom's drowsiness, we are leaving Mom and Dad while my Uncle's family, Grandma, Gloria and the boys including my in-laws all went out for Silent Night dinner together in China Town.  Thanks Jenny/Derek and Carly/Tyler for treating us.  Carly and Tyler were there with us the whole time.  They probably spend more time with my parents than anyone of us - thank you.  No wonder Dad loves them so much.  

After dinner, we all came back trying to say goodnight before heading home.  But Mom started shaking with spasms.  She's also having a hard time breathing.  Carly and the doctors said, according to their experience, we are talking 24 to 36 hours.  With this sad news, Fian and I decided to stay overnight and therefore, 4 Gu Jeh has to stay with us too (and she's more than willing to, I know).  Carly and Tyler also decided to stay as they know Mom and Dad would feel more comfortable when they are around.  With Mom's strong faith and peace, everyone seemed alright.  Thank God.

Mom was not stable the whole night and she would jump up and looked lost.  We all took turns trying our best to comfort her whenever she woke up telling her we are all here.  Fian would hold her hands from her right and 4 Gu Jeh on her left.  Cuz' she needed to sleep up, her head just kept falling.  So, I just decided to stay by her side a let her lean on my shoulder.  

20121225 Tuesday - Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday Jesus.  Since we were around, Dad got to rest a few hours.  Every time when Mom got up, she would look for Dad but we just kept trying to comfort her just to let Dad sleep more (10-1ish).  We took turns helping with different things and somehow I passed out at around 3am after a washroom break and didn't wake up until 6ish.  Mom's condition was still very unstable.  We all expect for the worse and all thought that Mom wanted to pick the most special day of the year for this.  She's pretty much unconscious the whole time.  Rev. Wong and C Mo came early at around 8am and prayed for her.  We believed she heard everything but weren't too sure.  Rev. Wong asked each of us to talk to her and it was the most emotional moment so far.  Dad's always the crying baby and this time, everyone else are all in tears.  I couldn't even talk properly weeping finally.  However, God's grace somehow woke her up when Rev. Wong and C Mo were trying to leave.  Mom said thank you and goodbye!  Again, that's cuz' of her character trying to make sure all "guests" are well greeted.   Later on, Uncle Ed brought Grandma and her heart was completely broken, which is very understandable.  Having two boys of my own, I can't imagine how devastated it can be if Jake/Jonah is suffering this much.  Mom tried her very best to stay up just to calm Grandma down, showing her that she's fine.  This time she's even more alert and up than Rev. Wong's blessing.  

Her condition was getting more and more stable onward, especially when the boys arrived.  She's not having any spasms anymore and her vital check was actually good.  The doctors confirmed that she will have a good night tonight.  So everyone's hearts is lighter once again.   I decided to go home tonight to recharge with 4 Gu Jeh.  Fian will stay but she went to Carly and Tyler's condo for a shower so she would feel better too.

The highlight of the day is for sure when Mom got up all of a sudden and wanted to stand up!!!  We were all not sure and in shocked.  She actually have strength on the knees all of a sudden!  God is amazing, thanks for giving her the strength!  Dad cried and apologized to Mom that he shouldn't have kept rejecting Mom when Mom asked him to dance before.  There's this song Dad likes about walking with Jesus.  So while singing that song, Dad and Mom actually DANCED!!!  Carly found another song (Uncle Ed and Auntie Tiana's song) after, so they had a little waltz moment.  I taped them all but my hands were shaky cuz' my tears just couldn't stop from falling.  Thank God for that.  It was really sweet.

Uncle Ed brought turkey and wine down.  We all celebrated Christmas as a family in the hospital.  Yes, according to Carly, even though we are in the hospital, we are celebrating together as a family.  Once again, thanks to my Mom, our families are super close.  God is good all the time.  

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted." (Job 5:9)