Today is only Monday and I am posting an update cuz' Mom went back to Princess Margaret Hospital (PMH) Friday. Yes, earlier than we all expected. Her condition has fallen and the medical team is preparing for her second induction chemo treatment when her body is ready. It'll start as early as this week. Thanks for all the prayers and don't let it stop.
For soup team, please re-schedule if possible as Grandma may not be able to make as much soup as planned (when she doesn't drive for ingredients and the drop off).
20121213 Thursday - After her weekly check up the day before, Mom was feeling alright. But at night, she had a fever and according to the discharge guidelines, she needed to go to the hospital. So Dad and Mom headed downtown early in the morning to see what's going on. It's just a sign from God that she'll need to get treatment. Carly rescheduled herself so she could take off early to see Mom and Dad at PMH. She was a bit worried kept asking me questions like how high is her fever, what other symptoms, when was her last chemo day, etc. Her conclusion wasn't great regardless, giving me only two possibilities, one is bad and one is not good, haha. I just hoped that nothing is serious. Carly said if anything, she may need to stay.
Gloria picked up Grandma after Bible Study Fellowship (we got to have lunch together while waiting for updates from Dad). Cuz' I was kinda busy, I didn't call them until around 4pm to see what's going on. They already finished all examinations and heading back for dinner with us. So it's a good sign. At least she doesn't need to stay right a way. She told me that her fever was gone when she arrived and she was actually feeling alright the whole time. That's why there's no reason for the doctors to keep them down.
Dinner was good. God gave us a quality family gathering time together before the next round. Jake and Jonah were so excited once again with Mom and Dad around. Mom didn't stay late cuz' she's tired once again from travelling. And good thing that she went home early. She started to have pain on her lower body and it was so painful that she couldn't even sleep that night. Dad tried to stay up and help but the pain was still there.
20121214 Friday - The pain didn't go anywhere. Mom finally could sleep late in the morning. The hospital called and said they have a spot for her tonight. Dad, therefore, had to finish packing while Grandma was trying to finish her soup for Mom. I decided to drop them off but needed to be after fellowship as I'm leading that evening at my place. We bought something to their place for dinner, trying to spend as much time as possible with Mom and Dad before they head downtown.
Mom was not well enough to even join us for dinner. It wasn't the best dinner I have to say. Dad is stressed about the fact that this is happening again and said grace with a shaky voice. Grandma was worried and didn't know what to expect and do as this is her very first time going through this with us. I'm also stressed a little with everything. I understand God is in control and I understand He is the almighty God who loves us more than anyone else. However, when it comes to walking in the process, it's not easy to bear so much. I have to admit that I am not as strong as ppl see/feel. It doesn't mean that I am giving up. It doesn't mean that my faith is gone, not a bit. It's just that each of our hearts are filled with some "negativeness" and it's not easy to share right a way in front of everyone. Please pray for us, pray for each of our needs...
On the way down, Dad had to sit with Mom at the back seats so he could keep massaging her to ease off her pain. The drive wasn't fun, as it reminds me of all my prayers with worries, uncertainties, questions, complaints, etc. I know I was thinking about a lot of random things but I was still trying to stay positive, knowing that He's in control. Let His will be done, period. No matter what, I'll take it with my family with a smile!!!
Interestingly, we got the same room! Nurses are all familiar, but Dad didn't get his sofa bed/arm chair though. Hopefully, they can find him one sooner. I have to say Mom is not the easiest patient to take care of, hahaha. Poor Dad being bossed around a few times but that's how we function in this family. Nothing will change I know, hahaha. God will be with them even when I'm not around. God will be with them when they are "fighting", it's all good.
20121215 Saturday - We went down as a family today while the boys are napping. We brought stuff down as usual, like Dad's bakery, bowls, chopsticks, coke, etc. I also brought them C Mo's congee and she loved it. She's eating okay. Mom is still in pain and was complaining about how much blood the hospital is taking from her body for blood work. I understand where it is coming from cuz' it's been so many days from Wednesday, Thursday, Friday to today!!! She also couldn't go to the washroom (no BM). Dad still doesn't have his sofa bed yet. It looks like he'll need to wait until Monday.
I didn't stay long as Jonah got up sooner than expected. Her blood pressure is a bit high, so she'll be on pills for that and BM, plus the pain killer until Monday and other procedures. We went back up for dinner with Grandma before the Christmas celebration at church. I wish they were here deep down but I know God will help us.
20121216 Sunday - With church in the morning and other commitments, I didn't visit them until at night. Well, the main reason is to wait for Grandma's soup. I drove Grandma back home after dinner before heading down. I wasn't feeling very well I have to say. Not sure if it's just my heart, the not excited journey or if it's from Jonah, my body is not at the best shape I know. Yeah, Jonah is having fever this evening just before dinner. And I started feeling something after dinner.
Mom's blood work is dropping. Her platelets went down to 39! She needed transfusion already. Thinking back, she was all good a few days ago and things can change this rapidly. Thank God for giving her a bed sooner so she can be treated earlier, on time. I brought Grandma's soup, some fruits and coke again (cuz' their got stolen!!!). Mom's bleeding when I first arrived. Her lips, mouth, teeth, are all with blood. It was before I found out about her low platelets. But once it was cleaned, it wasn't that bad. The transfusion started when I was there. She also has the appetite for soup, and pears. It wasn't bad. She is eating pretty good today. It's just her BM is still not there. Nurses have gave her medication and hopefully, she can go soon. I can see her big tummy cuz' of that (looks like she's pregnant, hahaha). Thank God that her pain is leaving, even though she is still very weak to go pee on her own.
God, this is not easy but we do have hope in You. We'll hang on to You tight. Pray for health of Jonah and myself too...
"but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." (Isaiah 40:31)
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