"Daddy, when you cry, I'll give you tissue paper."

20130102 Wednesday - Dropped Daddy David and Mommy Annie to the airport first thing in the morning before going to work.  That's right, the holidays are gone in no time.  It doesn't feel like there's one actually.  I missed all the celebrations, all the parties, all the shopping malls but I'm more than content as God and Mom are with me the whole time.  And even though I can't smile as much as I should during this holiday season, I know His plan is always the best.

First day back to work and it was very efficient.  I got most of the work done by 2pm.  So I headed down with 4 Gu Jeh.  We took all her luggage along cuz we were planning to go straight to the airport later this evening.  Yes, she's also leaving the same day.  Hope 2/4/6 (my three nephews) won't fight too hard for their little surprises as their ages are just too close.  So hard to find them individual stuff, haha.

Mom was sleeping most of the time again.  Carly said her bumps got smaller because her immune system was not well and therefore, Mom's normal reaction towards anything would be much less.  Therefore, it makes ppl think that Mom is getting better.  Again, God has the final say we know.  Mom is taking her time though.  It may take a few hours for other ppl but it may be a few days for her.  A few days for other ppl may take her a few weeks.  She is still my strong and stubborn Mom after all.  She looks stable but only a stable sleeping beauty.  I know she can hear us sometimes when she's a bit more up but her body is just too weak to react and give us any response.  As long as she's not suffering, I guess that's all I care at this point.  God, please give us strength and peace.

Carly and Tyler arrived before six.  So, Dad and I dropped 4 Gu Jeh to the airport so he could have a little break.  Thanks for flying all the way from Vancouver just for us and sorry for not being able to be a better host 4 Gu Jeh.  Next time, I promise.  I know Dad is worried about this sister of his who's single with no kids, just like Fian.  He said, if anything happens, they don't have anyone to go through with.  He has his point (maybe it's harder for 4 Gu Jeh but Fian, you know what you should do, haha) but God will have His plan for them I know and we'll always be there, if God allows.

Dad had a craving for dumplings, so we bought some for dinner from China Town.  That's why we didn't have space for what Uncle Ed and Auntie Tiana's when they arrived later (thanks always!).  They'll have it tomorrow.  I also got to go  back home to say goodnight to the boys and spent sometime with Gloria.

20130103 Thursday - since Gloria is off today, we went say bye to Carmen and QQ before heading downtown as a family.  (I really miss Preston, Frederick too of course, haha).   I wish I could have more time to spend with little P to make him crazy and sing him more Leon's songs, hahaha. Again, next time, I promise.

Mom slept well as expected.  She's very peaceful with no pain.  She showed us that she knew the boys were around.  Jake was such a good boy, keep touching Mom's hand gently.  Maybe that's cuz I tried explaining to him what's going on earlier:

Me: You know Mah Mah is leaving us soon?

Jake: Why?

Me: Cuz she's very sick.

Jake: Where is she going?

Me: She's going to heaven with Jesus.

Jake: ... ... I'm gonna miss her.

Me: Yes, me too and so will a lot of ppl like Yeh Yeh, Mommy, Ne Ne (Fian), etc. We are all very sad and may cry a lot but don't be scared though ok?

Jake: Daddy, when you cry, I'll give you tissue paper.  You are my best friend forever.

My tears couldn't stop for a good while.  My boy loves me a lot and he's growing up fast.  Thank God for sending me this gift...Jonah is too young to understand but he is also very gentle with Mah Mah.  Thank God for the technology.  I have tons of pictures and videos to show him when he's older - let's keep counting the blessings!!!

After a short stay, we went out for lunch with Dad and Fian!  Yes, Dad listened to Fian this time (he wanted to stay at first) as he promised Mom that he would listen to Fian and I, haha.  After lunch, Jake had some fun skating with Gloria at Nathan Phillip Square while Jonah was napping with me in the car.  "Hard working" Wilson came say hi to us too, haha (thanks dude).

The doctor told Fian that they may stop a blood clotting medication if blood is clotting in her brain or lungs.  Which means we may see her bleed.  She's not in pain though and she will probably keep sleeping.  There may not be a chance for goodbye but it's all good cuz we will see each other soon.

The boys were still sleeping when we got home. So, I went to work for a bit and got some stuff done.  After dinner and bath, I headed back down.  Carly and Tyler came shortly after while Dad was giving Fian a massage, haha.  He has been spoiling Fian while they were in HK I guess, hahaha.  Last night, we were all very calm.  We discussed peacefully little details for Mom's funeral around Mom's bed.  God is amazing.

There're so many ppl I want to thank but I always have the "not enough" feeling. So if I haven't thanked you yet, THANK YOU. Thank God for giving me this super close family. It's so much easier to go through this with your family.

Truly my soul finds rest in God;
    my salvation comes from him.
² Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
    my hope comes from him.
⁶ Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
    he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
⁷ My salvation and my honor depend on God;
    he is my mighty rock, my refuge.

One thing God has spoken,
    two things I have heard:
“Power belongs to you, God,¹²     and with you, Lord, is unfailing love”;
and, “You reward everyone
    according to what they have done.”(Psalm 62:1-2,5-7,11-12)

我 的 心 默 默 無 聲 ， 專 等 候 神 ； 我 的 救 恩 是 從 他 而 來 。惟 獨 他 是 我 的 磐 石 ， 我 的 拯 救 ； 他 是 我 的 高 臺 ， 我 必 不 很 動 搖 。

我 的 心 哪 ， 你 當 默 默 無 聲 ， 專 等 候 神 ， 因 為 我 的 盼 望 是 從 他 而 來 。惟 獨 他 是 我 的 磐 石 ， 我 的 拯 救 ； 他 是 我 的 高 臺 ， 我 必 不 動 搖 。我 的 拯 救 、 我 的 榮 耀 都 在 乎 神 ； 我 力 量 的 磐 石 、 我 的 避 難 所 都 在 乎 神 。

神 說 了 一 次 、 兩 次 ， 我 都 聽 見 ： 就 是 能 力 都 屬 乎 神 。主 啊 ， 慈 愛 也 是 屬 乎 你 ， 因 為 你 照 著 各 人 所 行 的 報 應 他 。(詩 篇 62:1-2,5-7,11-12)